Monday, May 26
I brushed away a fine hair that had been tickling my nose and thought for a moment. "Fifty three days so far," I answered. She had one leg over my shoulder, and I planted several small kisses along her warm thigh, my other hand idly caressing her belly and waist.
I felt her hesitation.
"I, uh, have some bad news," she said after pausing for a few seconds. "I have to go to Kansas again."
"Oh, dammit. Don't even tell me. . ."
"Yeah, it's going to be late next week," she replied, almost sheepishly. "I'm sorry, I just didn't have any control over when Marketing was going to ask for new staff training."
I knew that there was nobody else available to go, but I was still disappointed. "You know, you promised only sixty days this time," I said reproachfully, hoping to rub in a little guilt. "By the time the weekend rolls around it's going to be sixty four days."
"Oh, come on," she replied, "that's only five percent extra. After two whole months, what's another half a week?"
"Yeah, well, I don't see you not coming for two months. Let's see how you'd react if I told you you'd have to go for four days, let alone sixty four."
She disentangled herself to get off of the bed and pad toward the bathroom. "Maybe I could mail you the key at the beginning of the week."
I snorted, "Yeah, right. And have it get lost like that other time? No, thanks."
The sound of water tinkled around the door. "Hey, maybe you could leave it with somebody," I called out. "Preferably somebody cute, kinky, or both."
"You son of a bitch," she sputtered, "you'd love that, wouldn't you?" Walking back into the room she threw a towel at me. "I think you're missing the point of having your cock locked up."
"Yeah, somebody cute and kinky," I mused aloud. "How about that cute blonde that works with you. You know, with the big rack. What's her name. . . Chris?"
I didn't hear my wife's answer because she was beating me over the head with a pillow. All I was able to make out sounded like, "You bastard! I'll get you for that!"
The conversation seemed to go downhill after that.
Monday, March 24
Week 31: Something changed for the both of us.
For the next few weeks after the night that she tied me down, her libido seemed to increase. After having gotten accustomed to the once a week oral or strap-on sessions, it was a pleasant surprise to have her after me three times a week. Even though she refused to let me out, I felt my own libido responding in kind as I took her with the strap-on or spent a half hour with her thighs wrapped around my head. I'm not sure what inspired her, but I decided to enjoy it while it lasted.
One night I mentioned casually, "I don't get it. Usually when you're in the mood, you're willing to take the damn cage off of me."
"Well, it's only been a week or so, hasn't it?" she replied lazily. While I attributed her lack of precision to the fact that her thighs were wrapped around my head, it didn't bode well. Usually she's good about keeping track of the days.
"No, it's been five weeks now, and I'm really having a hard time."
"Hmmm. Only a month and already you're complaining? I should make you go for another month just for that." Her fingers tightened on my hair and she pulled my face back between her legs. "In fact" she added as I resumed licking her wet mound, "I'm thinking that it's time to take your training to the next level."
I managed to lift my head a bit. "Training? What the hell are you talking about? This isn't training, it's denial! You expect me to be happy coming once a month?"
Her legs tightened around me, pulling me back into position. "Right now, I think that you're going to be happy coming whenever I let you, be it once a month or once a year."
"Once a year?" I exclaimed, "I can't do that - that's crazy!"
In answer, she held my head down with her hands and lifted her hips. I got the message. I resumed my slow licking and sucking, all the while listening to her talking - more to herself than to me - about my "going for some really long term training." The more she talked to herself, the more aroused she became, until soon she was bucking and thrusting her hips so much that I could barely keep up.
Afterwards, she laid across my chest, relaxing. I was still aroused, of course, but not painfully so; somehow being able to give her so much pleasure enabled me to sublimate my own arousal.
"Umm, about this 'training' you mentioned..." I began, "It sounds very erotic and all that, but I barely get to come once a month as it is; besides, you're always saying how much you prefer my cock to the dildo. It's not going to be easy for you to do without, you know."
I was hoping to talk some reason into her. She looked up at me.
"I'm sure it's going to be hard for a while," she smiled.
Week 34: I find that I've lost track of the time.
People talk about "lifestyle" this or that, without really having a conception of what it's like to live 24/7 with something. Oh sure, they do it for a week, maybe a month, but for most of us, exploring some alternative sexuality is more of a vacation from real life, rather than becoming part of real life itself.
I don't remember when it changed for me. At one point the idea of wearing the cage every day was exciting; even the frustration of being denied an orgasm for a week or two was arousing in a way. Eventually, though, the reality slammed home - I wasn't ever going to have as much sex as I wanted; or rather, I was never going to have as many orgasms as I wanted. It took a while to work through the frustration of not being in control of my cock, to have to forgo the pleasures the joyful consummation of lovemaking. I developed a love-hate relationship with the steel cage that I built - I was proud of how well it contained me and how secure it was, but hated having to wear it.
When my wife began keeping me locked for longer and longer periods, I found myself so grateful for the times she released me that I didn't mind going back in right. Eventually though, even that pleasure was mitigated by her decision that I should clean her with my mouth and tongue immediately afterward. When we discovered a good strap-on harness and dildo for me to wear, it was almost a mixed blessing - I was unlocked even less frequently, but at least I didn't have to humiliate myself as often. And I realized, that's what it was - humiliation; I was willing to promise anything for those ten seconds of glorious fireworks.
But at some point a few months ago I realized that I had gotten past even that, and became almost perversely proud of my ability to hold out without begging for relief. Once every month? I could handle that. But two months? Three? I tried to put the thoughts out of my mind. Fortunately, my wife really enjoys intercourse, and we both knew that the strap-on, although pleasant, just didn't quite have the same feel. Maybe it was the angle, or the shape of the head, or how it was situated on my hips. Sooner or later, she was going to let me out. She had to, right?
Week 36: Silly me – I was supposed to be enjoying this.
A few weeks later I came home early and picked up the mail. There was a small package addressed to her from a company that I recognized as an adult products mail order house. I was curious, but couldn’t figure out a way to open the package without leaving a trace. I left it on her dresser. Later on, after she had come home, I saw that the package was gone, but she didn’t say anything about it. That night, I mentioned it when I was giving her a foot rub.
"Oh, it’s just a little something that I thought would be interesting for us," she replied mysteriously. “You’ll find out on my next day off," she said simply, and dropped the subject.
Her next day off was in two more days. Eagerly arising, I fixed her some coffee and toast and I hopped into the shower while she ate. I realized that she didn’t give me the key before I took my shower, but she sometimes likes to tease me by letting me think that she “forgot". I slipped into the bed, and she was already waiting for me.
"Here, eat me," she commanded, holding my head in her hands. I proceeded to lick her gently. “No, harder," she said, “make me nice and wet."
I thrust my tongue into her, drawing it up her clit in long, firm strokes. She came quickly, bucking her hips. “Oh, that was so nice. You don’t know how much I’ve come to appreciate your tongue these last few months."
"It seems like you only appreciate my tongue," I complained.
"Oh no," she assured me, “I love your cock inside me, too. It’s just that it’s such a hassle to unlock you, let you out of your cage, and then lock you back up again." She pushed me onto my back. “That’s why I have something for you," she explained, "that is, for us".
Reaching under her pillow, she brought out a realistic - a very realistic - looking dildo.
"Oh my God," I exclaimed, "that's me!"
She nodded. "I told you that for our anniversary I wanted something different, remember? Did you figure out that I had made a cast of your cock last month? I had it made into an extension for you."
"It’s a penis extension. You want me to put this on?" I asked, incredulously, “I won’t feel a thing!"
"It's not just an extension," she explained, "This is made from the best 'cyberskin' for a squishy, yet firm feel."
Handing it to me, I saw that the front end was solid, but the other end was hollow. I squeezed it - the tip was amazingly lifelike. I saw the familiar veins and ridges - holding it almost felt like holding my own cock. No, it felt just like holding my own cock - just not attached to my body.
"It's meant to fit over the end of your chastity cage," she continued, "you'll be able to wear this when I want some of your nice cock inside me."
Looking it over again, I said, "If you like my cock so much, then why not just unlock me? Why do we need an extension? "
"Silly," she replied, “of course you wouldn’t need one - normally." She took the extension from my hands and leaned in close to my face. She gave me a deep kiss and whispered “But we don’t have a normal arrangement anymore, do we?"
She sat astride my legs and rolled the hollow part up like the end of a sock. Then she placed it over my cage and unrolled it. It fit perfectly, and the tight rubber held it firmly in place. I could see the outline of the steel cage at the base, but otherwise, it looked like I had a full erection - my own erection.
"Oh my," she said as she stroked it, “it feels so lifelike. I’m sure it will feel as good as it looks, too." Quickly she positioned herself over it and lowered her pussy onto the shaft. I could feel pressure, but no warmth, no friction.
"Hey," I complained, moving my hips, “what the hell are you doing?"
She was already pressing her hips to mine in pleasure. “Ooh, honey, it feels just like yours. So nice and deep, too." She continued to grind her hips onto mine. I reached up to her to fondle her breasts and waist, to hold her ass. I knew we were fucking, but I couldn’t feel it. This was worse than wearing a strap-on, worse than anything I could have imagined. The feeling was absolutely maddening, and I began to pump my hips frantically in order to feel something – anything.
"Oh, yeah, just like that," she mumbled, oblivious to my own frustration, “I can feel the bumps from the cage inside me, it’s wonderful!" She leaned her head back and shuddered softly as she came. “Oh, that was nice. Much better than having you just stick some old dildo inside of me. I wish I had known about this months ago."
She dismounted and lay down next to me, pulling me on top of her. Hoping that this was a temporary distraction, I carefully thrust into her. She was so wet that I, that is, my extension slid in effortlessly. Her legs immediate wrapped around my own, and I proceeded to pound into her, half in lust, half in frustration. Before long she was biting my shoulder and pushing her own hips hard into me. We fucked this way until I lost count of how many times she came. Finally she seemed to relax, so I pushed her onto her side so that I could enter her from behind. My wife just closed her eyes and gripped my hand as I plunged into her, filling her deeply. I still couldn’t feel anything but some slight rubbing and the pressure on the ring around my cage. I had hoped that in this position I could make my balls rub on her thigh enough to stimulate me, but after a few minutes it was obvious that there was no way that I could come with this extension on. My wife, however, had no problem coming, and did so a few more times before she asked to get on top again.
I started to complain, but she reminded me that the week before I had come without permission, so I had to accept my punishment. She seemed to get excited by telling me this, and she came quietly. She placed her hands on my shoulders and leaned forward to kiss me. I was a wreck, of course, but she placed a finger on my lips.
"That was wonderful. It felt so real, because it's just like you," she said contentedly, "and there’s no danger of you coming before I give you permission. Wouldn’t you say that that is a good thing?"
"Umm. . ."
"And it's so easy to put on, just half a minute to get you ready, and we don't have to bother with the straps and getting things in just the right position, like with the strap-on. That's a big plus, isn't it?"
I nodded, unsure of where this was going, but sure that they weren’t going well.
"And I kind of miss just being able to have a quickie, don’t you?"
Still unsure, I nodded again.
"I’m glad you feel that way, because I was thinking that lately I might not be too tired to have a nice fucking at night. I miss that, don’t you?" For emphasis, she ground her hips into me.
Again I nodded – this really was not sounding better.
I've wanted to have more sex at night," she continued, "but the problem is that it’s such a hassle to unlock you at night. Then you’re too excited anyway, and you either try too hard to hold back and it breaks my rhythm, or worse, you come too fast, and that’s not fair to me – especially since when I punish you, I’m only punishing myself. Don’t you agree?" She squeezed my balls firmly.
"Umm, yes. . . er, no. . . er . . "This was looking bad again.
She silenced me with a kiss. “But now we can have sex whenever we want. With this nice extension, we could have a quickie, and there’s no unlocking, no cleaning up, you can fuck me for as long as I want, and I’ll never have to worry again about you getting overheated. And best of all," she continued, "it's just like you, so I'll never miss having you inside me! Doesn’t that sound like a great idea?"
"A great idea for who?" I asked with my heart in my stomach.
"And to think that this is all because you wanted a little teasing for your birthday a few months ago. Thank you, darling, for a present that is giving me so much pleasure to give you." She leaned down to kiss me again.
A few? It had been almost eight months! This was looking decidedly bad. “Um, you mean that we’ll use this to have a quickie, or sometimes at night, and on your days off we’ll still unlock me so I can get some action, right?" I nudged her again, “Right?"
She looked down at me, smiling.
"Silly," was her only reply.